My mind still pondering over the conversation between Leo and me on the day he was about to go back to Spore on 16/4.

We were having the breakfast together, and he told me that he has got no appetite even though the food that i have prepared were all his favourite ones. He also reviewed to me that he could not sleep the whole night. No wonder he looked tired .He said he felt very ' heavy " to go back to spore.

'Heavy" applied to the stress /pressure to his exam/study or his reluctance to leave his home and family members ?

For whatever the reason , i hope he will be able to 'unload' the stress gradually. Remember one must be able to 'change' to adapt to the situation no matter he is willing or not willing because life journey is just full of 'changes' and challenges.

The brothers patch up

If not because i was observant enough, i might have overlooked that my 2 sons have not been talking to each other since the quarrel in jan 09.

This could lead to a serious problem among the siblings in future if i did nothing to rectify it.

Therefore before my big boy come back for holiday, i have a heart to heart talk with the small one. I explained to him the consequences that may happen in future and i also made myself very clear that i was strongly against such action.At the end of the conversation, he promised to me that he will do something to bring back the relationship with the brother.

I waited to see what he was going to do ..cos he did not tell me what he was going to do.

Then my big boy came back in the mid april. The moment he went into the living hall, suddenly , he got a big hug from the brother and a big 'kiss ' on his face with a very sincere apology from him ' koko, i am sorry!'

Haha, without any further explanation, the two brothers hug each other and the laughter continued.

Ooooo, this was a very happy ending that i long for...Sons keep up the good relationship and be more caring and loving to each other ya..

Joy of cooking

Roast Char Siew

Roast Chicken Thigh

As a homemaker of the family, I just cannot avoid to get involved with cooking whether I like it or not. I also cannot recall since when I have fell in love with cooking which I hated so much those days ?

Nevertheless, I found my answer yesterday when I observed my loved ones i.e. my 3 kids and my husband who have enjoyed and "wallop" my dishes in less than 30 min. I saw how they enjoyed the food and the satisfaction on their faces! I guess this was the main reason why I am so into cooking gua .

To prepare good dishes for the family, a house wife needs to have a strong interest and a loving heart to get it done. On top of that, family members' appreciation will be another factor to encourage her to move on.

Getting together among the family members to enjoy home cooked meals will definately enhance the relationship within the family. I believe as long as my loved ones still enjoy my cooking I will try my best to improve my skill and search for better recipes.

My hands and ears create miracle

I am a beauty consultant by profession. I am in this career for more than 25 years. My daily life is not other than talking and facial treatment to my clients. Perhaps i am too long in this career, sometimes i really feel bored of the monotonous routine jobs.

What inspire me to go on perhaps not the income alone ( if is merely for this objective , i would have left long ago, i guess ) but the relationship with my clients which has rooted deeply in my heart since the day i get to know them. However today i have even discovered that my super hands and super ears also play their roles to encourage me to move on to this career!!

I get to know a woman by name of madam 'A' through her daughter in 2004. I can still recall she is such a typical simple housewife by appearance. Both of us speak the same dialect and inview we are also married with kids and after awhile we can communicate like long lost friends. Ha ha, by the way this is also a strength that i pick up from my career.


After chatting with her , i realized that she was lost and unhappy towards her family esp to her unreasonable mother in law and her husband who never take an initiative to show concern about her. She was stressed over these matters from the day she married to this family. No wonder she looked very down, timid and depressed .

I am very concern about her situation and really hope can release her tension. So while i was doing her facial , i tried to open her heart, she began to talk about her issues, from the in laws , husband and childredn relation to her daily lives routine etc etc. Surprsing after the facial and the talking , she was much revitalised and cheer up. Wao, my listening healed her stressed. Ho ho.. ho.. Great achievement for me for that day.

She dont visit me very often cos she stays quite a distance from my salon and she dare not drive to town. She depends on her husband or children to fetch her to my salon. I missed her though.

For almost 2 years I have not seen her, guess what ? She comes to visit me again today. It was shocking when i saw her, she looked pale and shrink in size. She is only 44 but she looked much older than me. What happened to her ?

She is still stressed with her family issues and now the immune system drops. I am very worried about her health.

Without further hesitation, i invite to a destressed facial treatment with my wonderful warm hands ( my customer described de ) and she began her story. While i was listening , i tried to console her and due to my hands movement, she slowly and gradually fall asleep and snoring away.

When i have finished the whole treatment, she woke up with fresh and relieved expression. I advice her to go for more facial treatment but if it is too far for her to reach me , she can opt for a saloon which is around her residence. She just replied in a very brief answer by saying , " I only trust you and i like you ! " For that moment , i was stunt with my eyes open widely. I was very happy and touched . To her , i am much more than a beautician, cos every time she visited me, she brought back happiness and hope. Whenever she is down, her children will offer to take her to meet up with me. She told me that.

With such inspiration, i think i must strive for areas of improvement and work better with my hands and ears so that i can help more lost and unhappy ones.

Life Journey

Life journey is all about the 'changes' of one's role. We encounters happiness, sadness, ups and downs through various stages of our lives.

We begin as some role and later we may change to another role, and it goes on and on. Whichever stages we may be , we have got no choice but to accept it and enjoy it. Weather we are young, adult or old , we can never choose to be at that particular stage forever.

Every change of our role, we have different responsibility and accountability. Through the different stages of change , we may fall but we learnt after that. We also gather experience along the way and become a better person.

Looking back all these years, i have gone through from very young to what am i now, i feel very contented. I have fullfilled my role and responsibility as a daughter, wife, mother as well as caring friend to so many others. I shall keep improving myself to be a better person and to share my life experience with others .

Time wait for no man

This picture was taken in 1990 , can see that the couple appeared to be pretty and handsome however see what happen to them now...2009 Jan..

changed from medium size to large liao.. and wrinkles and gray hair also appeared laio. aih. time wait for no man ..

My mama

This is the sweetest smile i ever seen from her... my beloved mother. she is 84 years old alredy. she is cute right ? i hope she can be happy for ever !

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Retirement program

I used to be on the move and was very busy with my career in my 30s to 40s. Therefore I always looked forward for time to rest or excuse to retire . Now that i am in my 50s and suddenly i fear of being too free and the running short of tomorrow's time.

Aih, now only i realized that being busy was really a good and contented feeling especially when i achieved my goal after my hard work, but now i really feel bad and sien and useless . We human always appreciate things that were no longer with us....I never wan to retire and the fact is i can choose to retire.. funny right ?

Home sick

All these while I thought I have done something best for my son that is by sending him to further his uni study in Spore. I assumed he will adapt to the lifestyle and also enjoyed after meeting new friends, given him some time . However from the recent trip that he came back home, I realized that he fell sick, home home sick. He missed the home cooked food, hawkers food, childhood friends, school mates, and all the family members and esp the smell of his own bed.

He told me that the feeling of back home is sooooo good !! That night we had bak kut teh together. He enjoyed so much with our company.

While we were walking in the shopping mall after our dinner, he hold my arms so tight and so close for fear of loosing me gua. My feeling was so good at that moment. It took me quite some time to get use to his absent but when he came back, i just cant control my emotion and hope can pour all my love and attention to him at one time. Is that call mother love ?