As i grow older , I really found some distinctive changes in my behaviour.
I become very sensitive and show my temper easily especially to my family members. My mood swing high and low and it is just out of my control. At times i was so down that i feel like i am so lonely and unwanted. I hope my family members will understand my feeling and do not blame me if i really hurt you guys unintentionally.
Please make some effort to understand me.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Monday, May 25, 2009
Sometimes i really wonder what is a lady look for when she is searching for her life partner? 4 Cs ? cash, credit card, condo and car ?
Some city girls are real " money duitan " and they are also very demanding especially to the requirements of their " target partner". Some say no need so tall but must at least 185cm, look not so important but must be smart and mature, not so rich never mind but at least earns 5 figures a month ..etc etc etc...and they claim that they are NOT demanding ! Wah , lol..! I wonder if they are demanding, what will be the conditions then ??
Some city girls are real " money duitan " and they are also very demanding especially to the requirements of their " target partner". Some say no need so tall but must at least 185cm, look not so important but must be smart and mature, not so rich never mind but at least earns 5 figures a month ..etc etc etc...and they claim that they are NOT demanding ! Wah , lol..! I wonder if they are demanding, what will be the conditions then ??
The most annoying kind of scenario is " riding on a cow and look for a white horse " ! I feel sorry for the one be treated as a cow and kena 'fei' when the real horse was found.
I also understood that many ppl do not mind the " one night stand" kind of attitude . They just want enjoyment without commitment !
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Money evil
Many old people said that we should produce more children so that they can take care of the parents when they get old later. However in most cases it does not happen that way !
The tendency is the more children one has , the higher the chance is that the children would push away the responsibility to one another when comes to taking care of the old folks. Some of the "no sense devil" children can even try by hook or by crook to cheat the parents so called "coffin money" !! He can behave so caring and nice to the parents but in his mind, was full of tricks to dig the money out from the parents! I hate such idiots !
We can't live without money but wrongly use or abusing it could be evil!
The tendency is the more children one has , the higher the chance is that the children would push away the responsibility to one another when comes to taking care of the old folks. Some of the "no sense devil" children can even try by hook or by crook to cheat the parents so called "coffin money" !! He can behave so caring and nice to the parents but in his mind, was full of tricks to dig the money out from the parents! I hate such idiots !
We can't live without money but wrongly use or abusing it could be evil!
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Mother's Day Gift
I am sure all mothers love to receive something be it tangible or intangible from their children especially in a special day so call Mothers day - a day to signify the mother 's contribution to the family. I, as a mother also will be much delighted if i can rec something from my children too !
Guess what ? I got a surprised gift from my son who is still studying in spore. Since he cant present himself in this day, he had decided to tailor make a video clip which comprised of our sweet memories and the happy time together from the past to present. Hehe, what a good and meaningful idea that he has !
While watching i can really feel his love and care to me ! I was really touched and appreciated his good effort . I guess the hard time that i have gone through with the family and kids was well paid.
Thank you very much for his gift and i shall keep in my memory as long as i live and i love him too !
Guess what ? I got a surprised gift from my son who is still studying in spore. Since he cant present himself in this day, he had decided to tailor make a video clip which comprised of our sweet memories and the happy time together from the past to present. Hehe, what a good and meaningful idea that he has !
While watching i can really feel his love and care to me ! I was really touched and appreciated his good effort . I guess the hard time that i have gone through with the family and kids was well paid.
Thank you very much for his gift and i shall keep in my memory as long as i live and i love him too !
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Shocking News
I got a call from one of my good friends in the morning and she told me she was around my office and wanted to collect the stock that she ordered 2 days ago.
Without further hesitation, i got myself prepared and drove straight to my work place within 30 min time. As i walked into my office, i heard the door bell rang and she was right in front my door.
While she walked into my office, i can observe that she had obviously lost weight, her eyes was swollen, somehow very different from what i saw her few months back. Jokingly i asked her" hey you lost weight wor ? why ?"
She just replied with tears that her husband passed away 3 months ago ! My immediate reaction was " what ? kidding ? " my hair stood up and for a few seconds i almost cant breath . Then my eyes were wet. tears kept flowing . What happened ? How come ?
She told me that her husband died of heart attack during CNY and it happened just within seconds. Until today she still could not accept the fact that her husband has left her forever.
They were such a loving couples since the day they married. They spent most of the time together because they have no children. They used to go for trips within and outside the country during the public holidays or as at when they have break time. Her husband was such a caring person that he would not allow the wife to do housework or even simple cooking. His interest was to search for good tasty food in any part of the town and during weekend he would take his wife to enjoy with him. In case he has to go overseas , he would make sure to call or sms the wife to keep her inform about every detail that he did to make sure that the wife was not lonely. This have been going on since they married.
Now everything was gone with the husband, my friend was left alone and kept recalling the sweet memory with tears. She has been counseled, but it did not work. She appeared ok in the day but at night when she closed her eyes , she will start crying ,crying and crying. She had sleepless night from the day her husband gone til today. No wonder she has changed drastically.
Why life is so uncertain, and why our life is so fragile ? To my friend, the best medicine to heal her wound is non other than time. I sincerely hope that as time goes on, she will be able to take it and revive to be a stronger person...Friend, you must take care !!
Without further hesitation, i got myself prepared and drove straight to my work place within 30 min time. As i walked into my office, i heard the door bell rang and she was right in front my door.
While she walked into my office, i can observe that she had obviously lost weight, her eyes was swollen, somehow very different from what i saw her few months back. Jokingly i asked her" hey you lost weight wor ? why ?"
She just replied with tears that her husband passed away 3 months ago ! My immediate reaction was " what ? kidding ? " my hair stood up and for a few seconds i almost cant breath . Then my eyes were wet. tears kept flowing . What happened ? How come ?
She told me that her husband died of heart attack during CNY and it happened just within seconds. Until today she still could not accept the fact that her husband has left her forever.
They were such a loving couples since the day they married. They spent most of the time together because they have no children. They used to go for trips within and outside the country during the public holidays or as at when they have break time. Her husband was such a caring person that he would not allow the wife to do housework or even simple cooking. His interest was to search for good tasty food in any part of the town and during weekend he would take his wife to enjoy with him. In case he has to go overseas , he would make sure to call or sms the wife to keep her inform about every detail that he did to make sure that the wife was not lonely. This have been going on since they married.
Now everything was gone with the husband, my friend was left alone and kept recalling the sweet memory with tears. She has been counseled, but it did not work. She appeared ok in the day but at night when she closed her eyes , she will start crying ,crying and crying. She had sleepless night from the day her husband gone til today. No wonder she has changed drastically.
Why life is so uncertain, and why our life is so fragile ? To my friend, the best medicine to heal her wound is non other than time. I sincerely hope that as time goes on, she will be able to take it and revive to be a stronger person...Friend, you must take care !!
Thursday, April 30, 2009
My mind still pondering over the conversation between Leo and me on the day he was about to go back to Spore on 16/4.
We were having the breakfast together, and he told me that he has got no appetite even though the food that i have prepared were all his favourite ones. He also reviewed to me that he could not sleep the whole night. No wonder he looked tired .He said he felt very ' heavy " to go back to spore.
'Heavy" applied to the stress /pressure to his exam/study or his reluctance to leave his home and family members ?
For whatever the reason , i hope he will be able to 'unload' the stress gradually. Remember one must be able to 'change' to adapt to the situation no matter he is willing or not willing because life journey is just full of 'changes' and challenges.
The brothers patch up
If not because i was observant enough, i might have overlooked that my 2 sons have not been talking to each other since the quarrel in jan 09.
This could lead to a serious problem among the siblings in future if i did nothing to rectify it.
Therefore before my big boy come back for holiday, i have a heart to heart talk with the small one. I explained to him the consequences that may happen in future and i also made myself very clear that i was strongly against such action.At the end of the conversation, he promised to me that he will do something to bring back the relationship with the brother.
I waited to see what he was going to do ..cos he did not tell me what he was going to do.
Then my big boy came back in the mid april. The moment he went into the living hall, suddenly , he got a big hug from the brother and a big 'kiss ' on his face with a very sincere apology from him ' koko, i am sorry!'
Haha, without any further explanation, the two brothers hug each other and the laughter continued.
Ooooo, this was a very happy ending that i long for...Sons keep up the good relationship and be more caring and loving to each other ya..
This could lead to a serious problem among the siblings in future if i did nothing to rectify it.
Therefore before my big boy come back for holiday, i have a heart to heart talk with the small one. I explained to him the consequences that may happen in future and i also made myself very clear that i was strongly against such action.At the end of the conversation, he promised to me that he will do something to bring back the relationship with the brother.
I waited to see what he was going to do ..cos he did not tell me what he was going to do.
Then my big boy came back in the mid april. The moment he went into the living hall, suddenly , he got a big hug from the brother and a big 'kiss ' on his face with a very sincere apology from him ' koko, i am sorry!'
Haha, without any further explanation, the two brothers hug each other and the laughter continued.
Ooooo, this was a very happy ending that i long for...Sons keep up the good relationship and be more caring and loving to each other ya..
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Joy of cooking
Roast Char Siew
Roast Chicken ThighAs a homemaker of the family, I just cannot avoid to get involved with cooking whether I like it or not. I also cannot recall since when I have fell in love with cooking which I hated so much those days ?
Nevertheless, I found my answer yesterday when I observed my loved ones i.e. my 3 kids and my husband who have enjoyed and "wallop" my dishes in less than 30 min. I saw how they enjoyed the food and the satisfaction on their faces! I guess this was the main reason why I am so into cooking gua .
To prepare good dishes for the family, a house wife needs to have a strong interest and a loving heart to get it done. On top of that, family members' appreciation will be another factor to encourage her to move on.
Getting together among the family members to enjoy home cooked meals will definately enhance the relationship within the family. I believe as long as my loved ones still enjoy my cooking I will try my best to improve my skill and search for better recipes.
Nevertheless, I found my answer yesterday when I observed my loved ones i.e. my 3 kids and my husband who have enjoyed and "wallop" my dishes in less than 30 min. I saw how they enjoyed the food and the satisfaction on their faces! I guess this was the main reason why I am so into cooking gua .
To prepare good dishes for the family, a house wife needs to have a strong interest and a loving heart to get it done. On top of that, family members' appreciation will be another factor to encourage her to move on.
Getting together among the family members to enjoy home cooked meals will definately enhance the relationship within the family. I believe as long as my loved ones still enjoy my cooking I will try my best to improve my skill and search for better recipes.
Friday, April 17, 2009
My hands and ears create miracle
I am a beauty consultant by profession. I am in this career for more than 25 years. My daily life is not other than talking and facial treatment to my clients. Perhaps i am too long in this career, sometimes i really feel bored of the monotonous routine jobs.
What inspire me to go on perhaps not the income alone ( if is merely for this objective , i would have left long ago, i guess ) but the relationship with my clients which has rooted deeply in my heart since the day i get to know them. However today i have even discovered that my super hands and super ears also play their roles to encourage me to move on to this career!!
I get to know a woman by name of madam 'A' through her daughter in 2004. I can still recall she is such a typical simple housewife by appearance. Both of us speak the same dialect and inview we are also married with kids and after awhile we can communicate like long lost friends. Ha ha, by the way this is also a strength that i pick up from my career.
After chatting with her , i realized that she was lost and unhappy towards her family esp to her unreasonable mother in law and her husband who never take an initiative to show concern about her. She was stressed over these matters from the day she married to this family. No wonder she looked very down, timid and depressed .
I am very concern about her situation and really hope can release her tension. So while i was doing her facial , i tried to open her heart, she began to talk about her issues, from the in laws , husband and childredn relation to her daily lives routine etc etc. Surprsing after the facial and the talking , she was much revitalised and cheer up. Wao, my listening healed her stressed. Ho ho.. ho.. Great achievement for me for that day.
She dont visit me very often cos she stays quite a distance from my salon and she dare not drive to town. She depends on her husband or children to fetch her to my salon. I missed her though.
For almost 2 years I have not seen her, guess what ? She comes to visit me again today. It was shocking when i saw her, she looked pale and shrink in size. She is only 44 but she looked much older than me. What happened to her ?
She is still stressed with her family issues and now the immune system drops. I am very worried about her health.
Without further hesitation, i invite to a destressed facial treatment with my wonderful warm hands ( my customer described de ) and she began her story. While i was listening , i tried to console her and due to my hands movement, she slowly and gradually fall asleep and snoring away.
When i have finished the whole treatment, she woke up with fresh and relieved expression. I advice her to go for more facial treatment but if it is too far for her to reach me , she can opt for a saloon which is around her residence. She just replied in a very brief answer by saying , " I only trust you and i like you ! " For that moment , i was stunt with my eyes open widely. I was very happy and touched . To her , i am much more than a beautician, cos every time she visited me, she brought back happiness and hope. Whenever she is down, her children will offer to take her to meet up with me. She told me that.
With such inspiration, i think i must strive for areas of improvement and work better with my hands and ears so that i can help more lost and unhappy ones.
What inspire me to go on perhaps not the income alone ( if is merely for this objective , i would have left long ago, i guess ) but the relationship with my clients which has rooted deeply in my heart since the day i get to know them. However today i have even discovered that my super hands and super ears also play their roles to encourage me to move on to this career!!
I get to know a woman by name of madam 'A' through her daughter in 2004. I can still recall she is such a typical simple housewife by appearance. Both of us speak the same dialect and inview we are also married with kids and after awhile we can communicate like long lost friends. Ha ha, by the way this is also a strength that i pick up from my career.
After chatting with her , i realized that she was lost and unhappy towards her family esp to her unreasonable mother in law and her husband who never take an initiative to show concern about her. She was stressed over these matters from the day she married to this family. No wonder she looked very down, timid and depressed .
I am very concern about her situation and really hope can release her tension. So while i was doing her facial , i tried to open her heart, she began to talk about her issues, from the in laws , husband and childredn relation to her daily lives routine etc etc. Surprsing after the facial and the talking , she was much revitalised and cheer up. Wao, my listening healed her stressed. Ho ho.. ho.. Great achievement for me for that day.
She dont visit me very often cos she stays quite a distance from my salon and she dare not drive to town. She depends on her husband or children to fetch her to my salon. I missed her though.
For almost 2 years I have not seen her, guess what ? She comes to visit me again today. It was shocking when i saw her, she looked pale and shrink in size. She is only 44 but she looked much older than me. What happened to her ?
She is still stressed with her family issues and now the immune system drops. I am very worried about her health.
Without further hesitation, i invite to a destressed facial treatment with my wonderful warm hands ( my customer described de ) and she began her story. While i was listening , i tried to console her and due to my hands movement, she slowly and gradually fall asleep and snoring away.
When i have finished the whole treatment, she woke up with fresh and relieved expression. I advice her to go for more facial treatment but if it is too far for her to reach me , she can opt for a saloon which is around her residence. She just replied in a very brief answer by saying , " I only trust you and i like you ! " For that moment , i was stunt with my eyes open widely. I was very happy and touched . To her , i am much more than a beautician, cos every time she visited me, she brought back happiness and hope. Whenever she is down, her children will offer to take her to meet up with me. She told me that.
With such inspiration, i think i must strive for areas of improvement and work better with my hands and ears so that i can help more lost and unhappy ones.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Life Journey
Life journey is all about the 'changes' of one's role. We encounters happiness, sadness, ups and downs through various stages of our lives.
We begin as some role and later we may change to another role, and it goes on and on. Whichever stages we may be , we have got no choice but to accept it and enjoy it. Weather we are young, adult or old , we can never choose to be at that particular stage forever.
Every change of our role, we have different responsibility and accountability. Through the different stages of change , we may fall but we learnt after that. We also gather experience along the way and become a better person.
Looking back all these years, i have gone through from very young to what am i now, i feel very contented. I have fullfilled my role and responsibility as a daughter, wife, mother as well as caring friend to so many others. I shall keep improving myself to be a better person and to share my life experience with others .
We begin as some role and later we may change to another role, and it goes on and on. Whichever stages we may be , we have got no choice but to accept it and enjoy it. Weather we are young, adult or old , we can never choose to be at that particular stage forever.
Every change of our role, we have different responsibility and accountability. Through the different stages of change , we may fall but we learnt after that. We also gather experience along the way and become a better person.
Looking back all these years, i have gone through from very young to what am i now, i feel very contented. I have fullfilled my role and responsibility as a daughter, wife, mother as well as caring friend to so many others. I shall keep improving myself to be a better person and to share my life experience with others .
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Time wait for no man
This picture was taken in 1990 , can see that the couple appeared to be pretty and handsome however see what happen to them now...2009 Jan..
changed from medium size to large liao.. and wrinkles and gray hair also appeared laio. aih. time wait for no man ..
My mama
This is the sweetest smile i ever seen from her... my beloved mother. she is 84 years old alredy. she is cute right ? i hope she can be happy for ever !Friday, April 10, 2009
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Retirement program
I used to be on the move and was very busy with my career in my 30s to 40s. Therefore I always looked forward for time to rest or excuse to retire . Now that i am in my 50s and suddenly i fear of being too free and the running short of tomorrow's time.
Aih, now only i realized that being busy was really a good and contented feeling especially when i achieved my goal after my hard work, but now i really feel bad and sien and useless . We human always appreciate things that were no longer with us....I never wan to retire and the fact is i can choose to retire.. funny right ?
Aih, now only i realized that being busy was really a good and contented feeling especially when i achieved my goal after my hard work, but now i really feel bad and sien and useless . We human always appreciate things that were no longer with us....I never wan to retire and the fact is i can choose to retire.. funny right ?
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Home sick
All these while I thought I have done something best for my son that is by sending him to further his uni study in Spore. I assumed he will adapt to the lifestyle and also enjoyed after meeting new friends, given him some time . However from the recent trip that he came back home, I realized that he fell sick, home home sick. He missed the home cooked food, hawkers food, childhood friends, school mates, and all the family members and esp the smell of his own bed.
He told me that the feeling of back home is sooooo good !! That night we had bak kut teh together. He enjoyed so much with our company.
While we were walking in the shopping mall after our dinner, he hold my arms so tight and so close for fear of loosing me gua. My feeling was so good at that moment. It took me quite some time to get use to his absent but when he came back, i just cant control my emotion and hope can pour all my love and attention to him at one time. Is that call mother love ?
He told me that the feeling of back home is sooooo good !! That night we had bak kut teh together. He enjoyed so much with our company.
While we were walking in the shopping mall after our dinner, he hold my arms so tight and so close for fear of loosing me gua. My feeling was so good at that moment. It took me quite some time to get use to his absent but when he came back, i just cant control my emotion and hope can pour all my love and attention to him at one time. Is that call mother love ?
Sunday, January 18, 2009
450,000.00 kept in the house ?
News from Sin Chew Jit Poh today that someone was robbed of cash of Rm450k from his house. Just cant imagine why such a big amount of cash was kept in the house and was there for quite a long time ?
I felt sorry for the owner but at the same time his ignorance and carelessness also to be blamed to cause such an incident to happen.
I have a friend who is in the trading business but he never keep his collection in the bank but only at home. His transaction are all in cash only. He told me it is very ma fan to issue cheques and he sort of cant trust the bankers. Can you imagine the risks he is taking ?
I felt sorry for the owner but at the same time his ignorance and carelessness also to be blamed to cause such an incident to happen.
I have a friend who is in the trading business but he never keep his collection in the bank but only at home. His transaction are all in cash only. He told me it is very ma fan to issue cheques and he sort of cant trust the bankers. Can you imagine the risks he is taking ?
Friday, January 16, 2009
Mother's behavior
I used to miss and love my mother those days but donno why of late the feelings of love towards her faded....
I also observed and asked around friends around me, not all old folks at her age behave like that.
The worst is her unreasonably continuous scolding ppl around her, esp her maid and my sister who has been taking care of her all these while! She used 3 letters words that really irritated us. She can be so weak out there but as soon she reached home she behave differently. She can bang the door and start find faults in ppl and start her nagging and scolding again. This really stress her siblings so much.
Perhaps she was brought up in the old traditioal way, her thinking was also very traditional. She thinks that a mother is always right and she hardly admits her mistake.
It is even more difficult for us to correct her mistake at her age now. So we just got to bare with her lor.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
women are really " Gia Su " no matter at what age
My job not only beautify my clients face but most of the time i have to spare my ears to listen to their problems or happenings.
Most of my clients are women and they aged from teenage to old age. Through their conversation i discovered that generally women like to compare and compete among themselves be it their looks, wealth, cars their boyfriend or husband drives, house they live, whose child are more intelligent and so on... the worst part was if they felt that they are not comparetable they would start to talk bad about you , terror right ?
As a conclusion , different age compare with different issues lor, aigh !
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Holidays over
To me Dec month seem to have ended very fast! I loved the feeling of getting together with my family members all the time.
Ever since my eldest son left for Spore for his uni study Ireally missed him so much and l always looked forward to see him back home esp in Dec when he got his 1 month break.
Compare to his 1st year break, he really made his effort to spend more time with the family which I really appreciated so much.
We enjoyed a full day shopping in Pavilion, walking hand in hand at the Curve to enjoy the Xmas scene and not to forget our Penang trip to enjoy most of the hawkers' food. Guess what ? We all put on weight, noticed our faces swelled and our bodies widened but the fact was, we all enjoyed so much. My son's weight increased by 6kg. I think he has to start his slimming program lo!!
I always wanted to have a loving family in harmony and i believe this dream can only be achieve provided every family members does his part.
Ever since my eldest son left for Spore for his uni study Ireally missed him so much and l always looked forward to see him back home esp in Dec when he got his 1 month break.
Compare to his 1st year break, he really made his effort to spend more time with the family which I really appreciated so much.
We enjoyed a full day shopping in Pavilion, walking hand in hand at the Curve to enjoy the Xmas scene and not to forget our Penang trip to enjoy most of the hawkers' food. Guess what ? We all put on weight, noticed our faces swelled and our bodies widened but the fact was, we all enjoyed so much. My son's weight increased by 6kg. I think he has to start his slimming program lo!!
I always wanted to have a loving family in harmony and i believe this dream can only be achieve provided every family members does his part.
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Quarrel between the brothers
I always feel very proud of my children. They appear to be very thoughtful, study also not too bad and most of all they behave well esp they will try their best not to hurt the parents!!
However i was so disappointed and stress over my 2 boys action today, they just quarrel over a very small matter. They spitted to each other and used words that really hurts. I was shocked and for a few minutes I really did not know what to do . Suddenly i realised that the two boys have grown up and they wanted pride more than anything. They just cant afford to loose their "face" !
Tell me how and what am I suppose to do to bring the two boys together ?
However i was so disappointed and stress over my 2 boys action today, they just quarrel over a very small matter. They spitted to each other and used words that really hurts. I was shocked and for a few minutes I really did not know what to do . Suddenly i realised that the two boys have grown up and they wanted pride more than anything. They just cant afford to loose their "face" !
Tell me how and what am I suppose to do to bring the two boys together ?
Friday, January 2, 2009
A special Xmas day to remember ..
I was drunk on the xmas eve and was damn happy cos i have arranged a small gathering with my sisters and my childhood friend. we talked and laughed and i drank red wines and whisky and white wine and eventually floored.. haha !!
I was sleeping like a baby and suddenly was awaken by an early hp call . I was cursing in my heart that who the hell who called so early esp in a holiday morning ?? Guess what ? Someone called and told us that our good friend just passed away early morning.
I just couldnt accept it ! I was shocking and all my sleepyness just gone and replaced by fear and regrets ! How could this happen ? His house was half way renovating and he cant even got a chance to move in to enjoy his new home ! It was so radiculours and unbelivable !
I can still recall his humourness, his voice, the way he used to disturb my children.. so near yet so far !
Life is just full of unexpectancies and at times we just cant really plan so far. We just got to appreciate what we have and care more for the loves while they are still around.
I was sleeping like a baby and suddenly was awaken by an early hp call . I was cursing in my heart that who the hell who called so early esp in a holiday morning ?? Guess what ? Someone called and told us that our good friend just passed away early morning.
I just couldnt accept it ! I was shocking and all my sleepyness just gone and replaced by fear and regrets ! How could this happen ? His house was half way renovating and he cant even got a chance to move in to enjoy his new home ! It was so radiculours and unbelivable !
I can still recall his humourness, his voice, the way he used to disturb my children.. so near yet so far !
Life is just full of unexpectancies and at times we just cant really plan so far. We just got to appreciate what we have and care more for the loves while they are still around.
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